"Hate To See Your Heart Break"

There is not a single word in the whole world

That could describe the hurt

The dullest knife just sawing back and forth

And ripping through the softest skin there ever was

How were you to know?

Oh, how were you to know?

And I, I hate to see your heart break

I hate to see your eyes get darker as they close

But I've been there before

And I, I hate to see your heart break

I hate to see your eyes get darker as they close

But I've been there before

Love happens all the time

To people who aren't kind

And heroes who are blind

Expecting perfect scripted movie scenes

Who wants an awkward silent mystery?

How were you to know?

Well, how were you to know-oh-oh?

And I, I hate to see your heart break

I hate to see your eyes get darker as they close

But I've been there before

And I, I hate to see your heart break

I hate to see your eyes get darker as they close

But I've been there before

For all the air that's in your lungs

For all the joy that is to come

For all the things that you're alive to feel

Just let the pain remind you hearts can heal

Oh, how were you to know? (How were you to know?)

Oh, how were you to know?

And I, I hate to see your heart break

I hate to see your eyes get darker as they close

But I've been there before

And I, I hate to see your heart break

I hate to see your eyes get darker as they close

But I've been there before

Bapakk ahh tak malu gile celebrate birthday sendiri. Mahaaha. 

Orang cakap,

Sayangi diri sendiri.

Then im showing LOVE to myself la right now! 

Who else, kan?

Alhamdulillah,

Another year aku tempuhi.

To be honest, for now,

Aku seperti manusia yang hanya jasad tanpa nyawa.

Jiwa yang kosong.

Tapi aku tak lupa,

Pada tuhan aku berdoa,

Ya Allah,tutupkanlah hatiku yang dulu,

Berikanlah aku petunjukMu,

Berikanlah aku kekuatanMu,

Kau kurniakanlah aku Nur untuk aku kembali hidup seperti dulu.

In Shaa Allah satu masa nanti aku akan kembali bernafas gembira seperti dulu.

Umur dah ehem ehem *batuk plak*

Meningkat lagi setahun, 

Ape azam?

Tak ade hati nak ber azam azam lagi sekrang ni.

Tapi bila aku lihat balik semua yang dah berlaku dalam hidup aku,

Aku mula nampak akan putaran hidup,

Aku mula sedar silap silap yang lepas.

Kalau lah, 

KALAU LAH AKU TAHU,

Aku tak kan jadi begini.

Siapalah aku untuk mengimpikan yang lebih?

Cukuplah kegembiraan yang aku rasa tahun lepas,

Semua sudah berlalu,

Hanya kuat di dalam ingatan,

Tapi hakikatnya, 

Tiada siapa yang masih ingat.

Mama bapa,

Anakmu ini sudah dewasa,

Thank you sebab segalanya. 

SEGALANYA.

My brothers, and sisters.

Thank you for not judging,

For accepting me for who i am.

For always memanjakan adik bongsu ini. 

Family,- parents, siblings, nephew&niece, 

Thank you for being the aaamaaaazing human on earth ever! 

Kawan kawan,

Maafkan salah silap,

Terkasar bahasa, 

Ter-selfish,

Ter-bebel,

Ter-pakse,

Ter-susahkan,

Wani, thank you sebab jaga i time sakit dulu, jaga makan minum, bawa pegi klinik.

Hajar, thank you sebab sentiasa ada ketika lapar, gian nak menyanyi, gian nak jalan jalan. Thank you sebab menjadi pendengar setia, penyimpan rahsia, penyokong yang tak menghakimi, yang tersenyum walaupun tersakiti. 

Anis, thank you sebab tolong bersihkan makanan bersepah sebab tammy yang nakal, yang selalu teman kat kedai Pak Li, yang selalu cakap "okay!" whenever i nak minta teman ke mana mana. and thank you sebab kenalkan with Qaiyum. 

Hana, Yui, Aneq, thank you for the laugh. thr best karaoke session ever! I dont knw how to thank to u guys cuz what i remember the most about korang, LAUGH. being around u guys buat i tak berhenti ketawa :)

Syaza, thank you for banyak menyayangi tammy n bibi. diorang kan kurang kasih sayang. thank you sebab banyak bersabar dengan kenakalan tammy. and thank u for buat i rase di hargai whenever i datang sana. 

Anddddd semua lah! thank you pada yang bergelar "kawan". to Azrai, thank youuu for being such a great friend. Kamal, Ajid, Ezza, ehh semua lahh!

Anyway. kenapa aku nak ber thank you thank you ni?

Hurm, to be honest, dengan pelbagai komplikasi dalaman badan aku ni, aku pernah terfikir yang aku tak kan sampai pun di usia ini.

Tapi Allah maha kuasa, 

Aku masih melihat.

Jantung masih berdegup.

Lidah masih merasa.

Hidung masih terbau.

Kaki masih teguh,

Aku hargai semua orang di dalam hidup aku. Takut takut, tak sempat untuk diberitahu. :)